…baby! We had decided we didn’t want to find out and we are sticking with our choice (even though I am curious!)

So we are Team Yellow all the way.   Cannot wait to find out in May. 

I was pretty nervous this morning and, as I hadn’t felt little Freddie move since my routine night time toilet trip, I couldn’t help but worry. Hubby kept telling me baby was sleeping but I’m sure it’s totally natural to be worried before a scan. 

When we got to the hospital there were already lots of people waiting and a sign to say there were system issues this morning and waiting times may be longer than usual. I didn’t mind, but my very full bladder did! After holding it in for what seems like days, we got called in and as the sonographer scanned we could see a little beating heart ๐Ÿ˜Š

She talked us through each part in so much detail and I was amazed by the beauty of the spine and little foot ๐Ÿ˜

   

 Although I only have a tiny bump, the baby is measure perfectly. Apparently I have strong stomach muscles holding it all in – I hope that means after birth my tummy will return to its nice flat state?! 

I feel like we can now start to think nursery and buying baby things. Exciting times ahead! 

Becky xx

Just a little post today to show off my bloated belly! It goes up and down depending on the day and time but today I’m looking particularly round compared to normal. I actually look a bit pregnant and not just like I’ve put on a little weight ๐Ÿ˜

 
16 weeks and 4 days – rounder tum, constant need to pee, trouble sleeping and sickness still lingering – when does that pregnant glow kick in?! 

I just keep reminding myself that all of this means there is a little person growing inside! Although I often end up referring to it as the alien growing inside me, I couldn’t think of a better reason to feel crap all the time ๐Ÿ˜

Becky xx

After my usual disappearing act I’ve decided it’s been long enough this time and I’m back to update my much neglected blog. I do have a good reason for being missing this time though!

Having started blogging a little about IVF I realise I never gave an update on how it was all going! Well… It worked!

I took two just incase ... then about 5 more just to check! ๐Ÿ˜

I took two just incase … then about 5 more just to check! ๐Ÿ˜

Knowing it had worked was the best and most worrying feeling ever! Amazing to see 2 pink lines, as we had never had that before, but worrying as so much could happen between that and our appointments up to that 12 week scan. All of the worry sort of sent me in to hibernation mode! I hid away from friends and pretty much went through a cycle of eat, work, sleep, repeat.

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I had 2 early scans, one at 6 weeks after a bit of bleeding and emergency hospital visit (all was fine, phew!) and one at 8 weeks before being discharged from the fertility clinic.

8 weeks – looking a bit like a doorman ๐Ÿ˜‚

Strangely, these didn’t make me feel better! I don’t know if it’s a common thing in pregnancy, or if it’s linked to my issues with anxiety, but I couldn’t settle until we had that 12 week scan. However, the sickness that kicked in at just after 8 weeks helped keep my mind at rest a little. So much sickness!! I didn’t realise it was possible to be sick after most meals each day and still function, but I did! I managed with only a couple of days off work and now at 13 and a half weeks I have had to take another due to a permanent headache that has now been in residence for 3 days! The midwifes/doctors assured me I’d feel a lot better after that magical 12 weeks – they were lying! But through all the sickness and headaches I keep thinking that it means the baby is in there, making itself at home, where it will stay until May, when it is born all healthy and beautiful (if a little slimy and gross!)

The 12 week scan was pretty special. I could breathe afterwards, it felt like everything just might work out. We saw a bouncy baby, and I mean bouncy, that did a somersault and wouldn’t stay still! I think I might be in for a lot of kicks when baby gets a bit bigger. I can’t wait – I say that now but when I can’t sleep in a few months I know I’ll regret it ๐Ÿ˜Š

 

12 weeks and looking like a real (but blurry) baby ๐Ÿ˜

So, there’s my update. There’s why the blog had been neglected. I am happy to report that I think I can relax ย (a little) about it all now and I plan to blog about the pregnancy experience a bit more over the coming months.

I would love to hear from others in a similar situation as sharing symptoms and advice always makes things easier. Drop me a comment below or an email and I’ll get back to you between having my head in the toilet from the nausea and locking myself in a dark room to rid myself of the headache.

Becky xx

As I said in myย last post, I would be using Becky’s Place (still not sure I like the name?!) to record some of my IVF journey. I know there are loads of blogs, vlogs (predictive text was adamant that should have been clogs!), websites and IG pages out there, but each journey is different and I think writing it down will help get through it.

Today marks an important day in our journey! Today I take my last cycle suppressant, which means in 3-6 days I’ll be able to start my injections (stims). ย That will be the real start to our IVF journey and I can’t wait! I really never thought I’d be this excited by the prospect of stabbing myself with a needle!

We had our injection training on Friday and I was raring to go.


I practised stabbing myself and it was fine but then today I made mistake number 1 (of which I’m sure there will be many more!) I watched youtube videos! For those that have never aimlessly wandered through youtube watching IVF videos (and why wouldn’t you?!), it is a minefield of woman sharing their experiences and showing you their injections. Some women cry, wince in pain, talk about how much it burns, and generally moan about them. I was super positive it would be fine as I had expertly stabbed myself with no pain, now I have been freaked out! I am sure everyone’s experience is different and I know I need to keep my positive attitude and not be swayed, but I am so easily influenced!

IVF Tip #1 – do not watch youtube videos before you start stims!

We are almost there. The journey to our little cub.

Becky xx

Starting a blog seemed like such a good idea. I thought I could share all the exciting things I got up to with some tips along the way. It didn’t take me long to realised I am not that exciting, I don’t really get up to much and any tips or tricks I had have usually been blogged about by others months ago! 

There are lots of successful blogs out there and when you read them people seem so passionate and confident. I know it’s usually because they are blogging about things that really mean something to them. Beauty and fashion are part of my life but not what I am really, truly passionate about! 

I thought long and hard about whether or not to blog about this but when I started I said Becky’s Place was somewhere I could share my life. The thing that I am most passionate about at the moment is making a baby! 

We have tried for years with no luck. I have been on medication that hasn’t worked. And finally, we are starting our IVF journey. 

Life for me isn’t make up, hair, exciting adventures and projects. Life is medication, injection training and visits to a clinic. It is something that society keeps quiet but actually I don’t want to keep it quiet. I want to share our journey. 

So here it is. My reality.  

If you would like to follow along, I will be blogging about different bits along the way. I have also set up an Instagram account to act as a diary of my journey and to reach out to a huge support network that is available. Find beckysivfdiaryuk on Instagram if you would like to see more. 

I’ll still add in the odd adventure and project along the way as I’ve got to have some fun! 

Becky xx